| Passion with a little humor. |
[27 Mar 2011|07:05pm] |
I was talking to someone last night and it was a much needed talk I didn't even know I had to have. I try to keep myself busy with my work, but every aspect of your life comes screaming for some kind of attention later. Like my love life that I try to ignore and shove under a rug came kicking and screaming the last few days. From meeting prince charming show no more to everyday Joe stand me up, without even a word of sorry or lets just stay friends. Which would have made me happy in the long run. Not that I didn't try to ignore it, but sometimes you can only ignore it for so long.
The one good thing that came out of this conversation is identifying I do know myself and I do know what I want. Some may call me naive or even a little sentimental. I just know I'm not going to settle anymore. I deserve to get what I give and what I give is a lot of Passion.
It is one of those necessary things of life and/or love that make the whole journey so worth seeing to the end. Without passion, one's life becomes a long list of endless chores and difficulties that is nothing but routine. Once you allow passion to act within your life, life becomes anything but just a daily habit and there is more to life than just the daily out of bed and back in bed, SSDD crap. There is so much that can be found with passion in it. Life becomes complete with it. A life and love without passion is void and hollow to me.
I can find it in everything that I do, not just in my work but the simple things. Let’s say something as simple as touching the laugh lines on someone’s face to how you laugh out in the moment. The instant satisfaction can help in feeling passionate and I embraced it as true joy and excitement. It’s never easy though is it? I even have the moments were I feel like should just go with the flow, allow myself this little bit of happiness even if I’m not truly happy. Happiness is not eternal anyway. It’s moments in life and I’ll be damn if I’m only going to have a few mediocre ones. I for one I should feel enjoyment in life and as time continues my passion for life and love will be fulfilled by the simplest actions and the smallest of treasures. So in all, even if I’m crappy at love and not so much life I’m not going to give in on finding that passion.
For those that read this for I hope you read it with a little humor.
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[04 Mar 2011|09:04am] |
I knew it would happen sooner or later. My soap opera days have resurfaced and I can't hide my love for my dog any longer. Added bonus a clip from Red Riding Hood
David Letterman 03/01/11
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| Other things on my mind but I'll talk about this. |
[24 Feb 2011|09:01am] |
So it seems people are more interested in knowing I have no clothes on than whatever else I have to say. In next months issue of Interview magazine Justin and I did a phone interview. I thought it was a very cute idea and I haven't seen or heard from Justin since we wrapped NOW. We all do things that are a little out of the norm on the phone. I just happen to maybe let it slip that I'm more comfy in my birthday suit. When I'm at home I'm at home, being as comfortable as I want. In all honesty- the phone call came just when I was about to get into the shower. Not my fault someone has bad timing. Anywho, long story short, I had fun doing the shots for this interview and anticipating the release of Red Riding Hood. That's why you should really go out and buy March's issue.
( Interview magazine photo shoot. )
And before you ask. Yes, I kept them.
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| I haven't had my coffee yet. |
[20 Feb 2011|06:53am] |
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I can't be the only one who does interviews in their birthday suit.
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[13 Feb 2011|07:28am] |
Sorry I haven't been around, just wrapped up Now with Justin and started a very low budget independent film with a friend. Then I had to go ahead and do something dumb like sigh up for another movie that will start in April. I think I forgot what it's like to take a real vacation. I can't complain too much, after all I get a little more free time with this film then I did with the last one. So maybe I can be a little more social.
I'll admit I might come off a little shy at first, but I warm up to people really fast. I think the last time I was out was at one of Jensen's parties. Most of the time I hung out like a nerd in front of the food and just observed everyone else. I'm more of a people watcher. I remember a time I could sit at a coffee shop and watch people all day. Not creepy like a stalker, but I guess you can call me a student of human behavior. I kinda of sit back and watch scenes unfold around me. I learn so much about how people are with each other and most of the time it can be highly entertaining. We are lot more comically then we think. I find that I can even get lost in someone. Mostly a child when they seem so free and unburden with what is going on in the world. Only involved with what is going on in front of them. I try to be a little more childlike I guess. All big eyed and full of life. Even if I need to work on the full of life part.
I don't know where I was going with this post. I'll just chalk it up to a ramble of a small blond girl that need to get out and meet people. You are welcome to come say hi anytime. I don't bite unless you want me to and you can keep my attention with a good dirty joke.
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| If laughter and sex are good for your health then I'm damn healthy. |
[08 Nov 2010|01:10am] |
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Sex is so many things when depending on the people you are having sex with. The moods can be different or change over a course of time. I find that it can be casual, romantic, hot and lustful and sometime down right dirty. Even with me I can find it funny. That's right I said funny. I like laughing out loud and getting lost in something that happens between me and my partner. I find that I can laugh more after then during. Sometime I am just that blown away I have to laugh it off, fall into a mix of giggles and climaxes that turn into a fit. I use to think this was strange, because sex was suppose to be something so serous between two people but if I’m with a person whom I feel comfortable with and I make them feel comfortable, then there is no rules as to how to control our moods. And that means laughter is a possibility, if not a requirement at times.
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[17 Oct 2010|02:21pm] |
This was the best interview I have ever done. Maybe because it was in my own home and where else are you more comfy then your own place. Where I'm more relax with my dogs and surrounded by my mess. Plus Mark was adorable and that goes a long way with me. Too bad I like meat.
( cutest interview ever. )
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